newlangren | 1 points | Oct 21 2021 15:52:14

This was the worst period of my porn addiction. I kept reciting the book of Corinthians on my bed. I kept grabbing my dick and thought it was about to explode. I thought it was okay to browse reddit and saw NSFW posts everywhere. I sat up and kept slapping my face until my tears started dropping down. I really don't know what to do. I was originally thinking about not to jack off today and just use YouTube to watch some random videos. Who knows that YouTube's trending page is full of bitches dancing and reacting. You know, I really don't want to watch this, this is like someone standing next to you and tell you to masturbate. How can I watch like this? You know those who made the algorithms and big data, they are really the evil of the earth. But eventually I watched them. Do you know why? Because my dick really can't handle it anymore. Before this, I opened instagram, I used twitter, any platform I wanted to check stuff, they will recommend those shit to you sooner or later, a few times every day and every week. I mean really, fuck that, one or two days are enough. I wanted to cry after I watched those stupid shit. Then I got hard again and jacked off again. I really feel like this society is forcing you to jack off or commit crimes. You know, if I don't just use my phone at home, it's okay to hang out around. I go out to the restaurant and it's exposing bitches all around my place. I just went for a hamburger, there was again a woman wearing nearly nothing next to me. I had to keep my head down and chew really hard to not look at her pale skin and her body. Suddenly my head went hot again and I thought I wasn't eating the burger but her giant tits. I went nuts and came in my pants. For fuck's sake, I'm really desperate. I need to find a home for my dick. God gives you a dick and you don't use it to fuck pussies but to masturbate every day. If god really knows that I'm using my dick like this, he might just take my dick back. I'm really going mad thinking about women every day. I think about women on my bed. I think about women in shower. I think about women when I go outdoors. I think about women when I walk. I think about women when I'm in a car. I think about women when I work. I think about women when I use my phone. I stare at women near the road. I stare at women on the other side of the road. I stare at women in the subway. I stare at woman of my best friend. I stare at women on social media. I stare at women straight into their eyes every moment and every hour. I really feel like I'm controlled by demons. My thinking of women has gone ill. I am so lonely! I am really so lonely! Aagh! There are are many women in the world, why is none of them mine! I don't buy this for fuck's sake! I want to fuck all the women. Why isn't my dad Bill Gates? Why isn't my mother Nancy Pelosi? Why isn't my uncle Donald Trump? Why isn't my nephew Jack Ma? I want to fuck those that are tall, short, thin, fat; I want to fuck those with big tits, huge ass, tits and ass large and soft; I want to fuck the whites, blacks, Hispanics, Arabs and Asians; I want to fuck college students, teens, brides, housewives, models, actresses; I want to fuck exercisers, dancers, singers, swimmers, divers, horse riders, pianists, readers, merchants, workers and bosses; I want to fuck those in uniforms, tights, trainers, stockings, skirts, shorts, Japanese outfits and normal ones. There are so many women in the world, anytime, anywhere, every moment, in schools, subways, streets, shopping malls. They are either making postures, or being young and pure, or having stiff upper lips, or hyperactive, or sad and gloomy, or being ready for sex. Why can't I have them all? Why? I really want to fuck anyone, anytime, anywhere, I want to fuck everyone! On the subway! At the counter in the mall! On the sidewalks of the streets! In the college square! In the hotel lobby! In the ICU! In highway intersections! On the air! At weddings and funerals! I want to fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! I want to fuck the world into devastation. I want to fuck onto World War III. I want to fuck until the end of the world. I want to fuck until the sun and moon lose their lights. Why can't I fuck any one of them! Why isn't Naruto my father! I want to turn my dick into a sword and slay the all the defences of a woman. I want to to use my dick as a ship and sail in the ocean of pussies. I want to use my dick as seasoning too add some flavour in those pussies. I want to use my dick as light to purify the evil inside of them. To fuck women, I became a swiping robot of apps. To fuck women, I fasted and prayed to God. To fuck women, I have jacked through this entire city. I want to fuck women, is it really possible?